Reminiscing

Desire to get over

Free from troubles and yearns

Stumbling upon your frequent spots

Trigger lots of unwanted memories into my mind

The bittersweet times,

Regardless the fun I fondly missed and yearn for

I willed myself not to bring those times rolling back into my weak mind

How I want to surrender to this uphill battle,

I want to overcome this challenge but another part of me prevents me from reaching my undesirable goal

Unfortunately

Almost everything I see leaves a trail of your scent

How am I supposed to believe that nothing will change?

Somehow change is always ongoing

And nothing can stop it

I simply cannot place my trust in everything

I don’t want to end up falling apart when the chapter ends

I don’t want to lose my last control I have over myself

I don’t want to give in to temptation

When all else fails,

I don’t want tears and misery at the end of the road

My future is all misty now

And you can take it all now

But you can never take yesterday

All the feelings that were bottled up will overflow one day

And when that day comes I’m not going to be there to empty its contents

Someone told me to take caution when it comes to love

Did I really follow?