Sunday, April 25, 2010
~ 7:04 PM ~
Forge my heart
Remold it
Cast it into the boiling pits
Take it out of the fire
Drop it into cooling water
Hammer it with brute force
Leave it aside
Tie it to a leather belt
Thus becoming a prized possession
Brandish it
Then throw it into the river
Where it’s lost forever
Lost in the deep depths of undergrowth
Awaiting the return of its owner
Never did he come
Never did he search for it
Never did he worry about it
Because he knew he could easily obtain another
He left it drifting in murky waters
Decades after decades
No one bothered anymore
The burning fire in it has died out
Discarded
Just like that
No kindred soul willing to pick up where it left off
Forge my heart once more
And the vicious cycle repeats itself
When will it ever cease??
Saturday, April 10, 2010
~ 1:29 PM ~
The fun and tears we had,seems so distant now that you are leaving.
Just so you know,
I'm sure we both didn't really notice the changes
we experience in these few years.
Until when we really look back,
we start to wonder how fast time flies.
It was just yesterday that I got to know you and then
its already the present fact that you are going.
Just know that we will miss you guys
and hope that we will do you proud.
So i just wanna say....
WE WILL MISS YOU SENIORS!!
P.S. I know this post of mine is not even counted emo (how shocking!)
the first not emo post in how many years liao.... :)
Monday, April 5, 2010
~ 10:23 PM ~
I miss those brown eyes,I know I will miss your face when i gaze upon you.
I miss the deep blue sea eyes i stare into whenever I feel down.
But now everything seems to contradict the past,
why do things have to change?
Why must we experience this drastic change?
I miss the times we had together,
the laughs and the tears.
But I never told you
what I should have said.
I never told you,
I still held it in till this very day.
I miss everything about you,
your laughs,
your smile,
your gestures.
But why do you have to give me the cold shoulder now?
Every word you say to me,
sounds forced.
I never get another genuine smile from you.
I never get a wholehearted laugh from your lips anymore.
I never get a warm hug from you.
You leave me in the corner to drown in my own misery.
Perhaps you hate me,
perhaps its the attention you need from everyone,
and I'm stealing your limelight.
But I promise you will be the light in my heart.
Please don't shun me from your life.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
~ 11:17 PM ~
I hate it when I'm blinded by the dark.I've never felt so helpless and frail before.
Its like I'm groping onto the torch which doesn't seem to work.
Its like holding on to my last bit of hope
before succumbing to the dark.
Surely that last faith I have in me would be
sufficient to save me from your jaws.
But no,
it seems to me that everything I do
is just not enough to please everyone.
You give me hints here and there,
the whole point of it is to make me wake up to reality.
I don't want to break my little dream of peace,
where its the only place I escape to,
to run away from problems.
Confusing me with your words and feelings,
I don't know what else to say.
You swore to tell the truth,
but is it a white lie?
I cannot differentiate between the truth and lie anymore.
And I shall refrain from doing so.
I do not wish to see the old me crumbling down into dust again.
The higher I place my hope in you,
the harder it will be for me to walk away,
and the pain will be more excruciating when all things fail.
I simply don't want to end up hating you.
