You can't blame someone when they have doubts.Especially when he or she doesn't want to be in the position
whereby humiliating oneself on front of many
and most importantly you.
She doesn't want to land up in the same defenseless situation
and most definitely not want to lose control over her emotions.
No one likes to see someone breaking down,
going head over heels for someone who is not even possible to start with.
One will continue delude herself with illusions and lies
to cover up for the hurt and sorrow inside of her.
Its a state of bliss that you will think
that you were dreaming the whole way through your life.
The pain and sorrow inside has been so great that
you can mistake it for a occasional feeling.
Since time took over all that is moving,
all i had to do was to trail after it.
Simple questions but no answers.
You experiencing this feeling with no reasons,
leaves me with suspicion.
I almost regard it as a lie or a joke.
No reasons or explanations to back up what you say.
How do you expect me to believe you?
I don't want to fool myself,
let alone embarrass myself in front of you.
Like you said,
suspicion is part and parcel of life.
Your words may contradict the truth hidden deep within you.
