Friday, December 18, 2009
~ 12:28 AM ~
There are both sides to every story.
I just want to say my piece and get it done and over with.
There are the times when I turned my back on you.
Those times I admit,
must have been really harsh.
Sure it was natural for you to look for another
when you were bored with my same gloom expression.
Sure you needed some comfort of your own.
Sure you needed your own time of fun and laughter.
If you have already achieved those during the period when
I was in the doldrums,
why didn't you come back?
Seeing you having fun I thought maybe you were just tired.
Entering and leaving has always been other people's habits,
but does it look like mine?
Its only fair for me to look to someone else when you were having the fun.
Don't expect me to wait here,
looking like a fool,
waiting for someone who doesn't turn up.
Sure I've given you high expectations.
Sure I've given you all I could.
But does that literally mean I'll just walk away anytime?
And does that imply the fact that I'll leave without any reasons of my own?
If someone does get hurt during this heart-wrecking process,
does it always have to be me?
You saw me without a soul beside me,
I only clung onto the passer-bys,
till then did you see me with both your eyes?
Sure you can say I was not the only one who got stabbed.
Sure you can that you did not enjoy a single moment of it.
Sure you are still entitled to your little zen.
Sure you are just a little girl searching her own little peaceful world.
At least you have someone to converse to during those days,
you can say you didn't enjoy them.
I've heard them so many times.
Yes you cannot please everyone around you.
Yes this whole incident is not just your fault entirely.
Yes you are just trying to avoid this situation again and again.
Yes you like everlasting moments especially good ones you can linger on.
And yes you desperately tried to cling onto what you can
when winds of torment blow hard against you.
I'm not trying to pin-point anything.
I just want to state my point.
I admit I can be a pain-in-the-ass sometimes.
I admit I have an attitude that not everyone enjoy having.
But from there can you imply that I started it all?
That I was the root of the trouble?
I just want to state my side of the story,
it doesn't even matter if you even regard this.
