I thought it was all over.
We broke it off without any harm done.
Words that don't signify anything relates to nothing.
Words that come from the heart truely bears the thought that counts.
I have to admit that without you,
my soul could never be put to rest.
As everlasting that it may seem,
all good things come to an end.
As expected,
I find myself crumbling down.
Those nights I find myself giving up.
I could end my misery any moment.
It took my heart to the limit to sever ties with emotion.
I was at the borderline to surrender.
Yet here I am,
able to live on with whatever comes in my way.
Needless to say,
overcoming this challenge is nothing but a dream.
I struggled to keep pace with what I had.
The bitter truth I have to face knocked me off completely,
falling in love is nothing but illusion.
Emotions from the heart wrecked me tonight.

Is it possible to rewind back?
Is it possible to return to things the way they were?
Can we close one eye and move ahead,
irregardless of what we did.
We have experienced this so many times.
Does one more time make another difference?
Let us cast this aside and make another new beginning.
Each end has a new beginning does it?
In the past ends,
I apologise for what I did.
Even though we were known as the inseparable,
it is expected that one day we will walk different paths.
So better safe than sorry,
act now and think later i guess...

There are both sides to every story.
I just want to say my piece and get it done and over with.
There are the times when I turned my back on you.
Those times I admit,
must have been really harsh.
Sure it was natural for you to look for another
when you were bored with my same gloom expression.
Sure you needed some comfort of your own.
Sure you needed your own time of fun and laughter.
If you have already achieved those during the period when
I was in the doldrums,
why didn't you come back?
Seeing you having fun I thought maybe you were just tired.
Entering and leaving has always been other people's habits,
but does it look like mine?
Its only fair for me to look to someone else when you were having the fun.
Don't expect me to wait here,
looking like a fool,
waiting for someone who doesn't turn up.
Sure I've given you high expectations.
Sure I've given you all I could.
But does that literally mean I'll just walk away anytime?
And does that imply the fact that I'll leave without any reasons of my own?
If someone does get hurt during this heart-wrecking process,
does it always have to be me?
You saw me without a soul beside me,
I only clung onto the passer-bys,
till then did you see me with both your eyes?
Sure you can say I was not the only one who got stabbed.
Sure you can that you did not enjoy a single moment of it.
Sure you are still entitled to your little zen.
Sure you are just a little girl searching her own little peaceful world.
At least you have someone to converse to during those days,
you can say you didn't enjoy them.
I've heard them so many times.
Yes you cannot please everyone around you.
Yes this whole incident is not just your fault entirely.
Yes you are just trying to avoid this situation again and again.
Yes you like everlasting moments especially good ones you can linger on.
And yes you desperately tried to cling onto what you can
when winds of torment blow hard against you.
I'm not trying to pin-point anything.
I just want to state my point.
I admit I can be a pain-in-the-ass sometimes.
I admit I have an attitude that not everyone enjoy having.
But from there can you imply that I started it all?
That I was the root of the trouble?
I just want to state my side of the story,
it doesn't even matter if you even regard this.

You said once that I was the one you can
truly sincerely open up to.
I'll be ready to give you that.
It was always there in the first place,
only I don't know whether you took hold of the chance.
It doesn't have to end this way,
even if it does,
why aren't we preventing it from taking form?
Don't ask me why I'm always like this.
I'm still trying to sort out my thoughts.
Do you know what happens when the walls gets shaky?
The roof will in turn collapse sooner or later.
We are both but humans,
whose nature are suppose to be selfish.
Our selfless thoughts always come before others
no matter how we try to change it.
We were once the bright stars shining above,
the green grass across the widespread fields,
the trees standing tall during omnious days.
What happen to these times?
All kept under lock and key I suppose.
Reflect on your past and try to remember how
you treated others.
Dig out the truth from your heart,
only then will you realise what I've always been talking about.
This time,
I'm not able to lend a helping hand.

Keeping promises aren't easy.
Keeping true to yourself is an entirely different thing.
You are holding your word to me that
are entirely empty promises.
Nothing more than just an plain old bubble.
Talking is cheap.
Down this road we have experienced many obstacles.
We have shared many.
You confine to me whenever needed.
I'll always be there to try to bring that frown upside down again.
I'll give you my word for that.
In return,
I don't ask for anything.
At most I'll just feel dejected.
I'll just hold my words in and keep everything inside.
Till then,
I try not to hold anything against you.
You are always hard to hold on to,
hence letting go is easier.
Sometimes I leave you to your little haven,
when i'm halfway gone.
My ultimate return makes me feel deprived of what I missed.
Hence I confine myself to my quarters and start killing myself inside.
Not everything is about you.
The more I try to fight the urge to spit out,
the more you show that ugly side of you.
The other side I've been missing looks like it has gone down the drain.

Nevertheless how unfair you were,
I compelled myself to not complain.
Nevertheless how accountable you were not
for your mistakes,
I commanded myself the pain would all
go away sooner or later.
Perhaps I've made a harsh understatement,
I should have said something harsher to make
you realise your mistakes.
The more I try to correct,
the more your attitude takes the tide.
Nevertheless,
I took it all in.
It was all I could do before I cut the thread to menace.
These few days,
made me open my eyes to the true you.
To be honest,
I don't think I'll be able to take all of your charms.
I don't want any drastic changes between us.
Yet I know the possibility of your change,
that would be close to infinity.
Whence there was a connection between us.
Thereafter becoming nothing more than a common friendship.
I thought we had some special bond,
that seems to cease.
Looks like I've been drowning in my dreams all along
I did not open up to see what was really in front of me.

I had my little world,
my little world of loneliness.
Till then,
nothing's much has changed for me.
I found myself wanting more and more.
I needed someone to be there for me.
So here I am.
Seeing you has become a habit for me.
Sometimes even an addiction.
Thinking back on how you look,
I know perfectly well that I'm not good enough for you.
your straight spikey jet black hair,
your golden-brown caramel-filled eyes,
your dark brown cheeks,
your oh so perfect dark pink lips,
your perfect breathtaking body
The strong arm gestures that swept me off my feet.
The warmth that radiates off you to keep me filled warm.
I can just stare at you for hours,
just you carrying on with your life.
I can't stop thinking about you.
I know that I'm not the first to say this.
But...
I think I love someone.
And that someone is TAYLOR LAUTNER!