Tuesday, October 27, 2009
~ 9:43 PM ~
How hard is it to make a decision?
I underestimated myself,
thinking that there will be a time I will not have to make such
a tough decision.
Torn between both worlds.
With only one choice.
Given one,
choosing over friends.
Given the other,
sacraficing friends and walk into a totally new environment,
just because I don't trust myself anymore.
I don't trust myself if I'm able to
overcome this challenge.
I don't even trust my own words,
my own determination to carry me through these years.
I say I can and will do it,
inside doubt fills me completely.
There is always a possibilty of failure,
it only matters how hard I'll fall when that happens,
and how quick I'll be able to get back up on my two feet.
Weighing my options
yet I still find myself
stuck at a position.
Neither moving forward nor back.
My mind feels like it has been hit by a tornado,
nothing it can do to calm my rocking frantic mind.
All I can do is,
make a mistake and try to correct it.
Unable to make a choice...
Torn between two worlds is such an unghastly feeling...
