Is there anything in the world for free?
Seems like there is nothing,
nothing in this world is for free...
In that case,
shouldn't we treasure what we have?
Good things come and go,
its up to us to grasp it tightly...
The only thing that is for free,
would be the trust of a friend...
Does one need to pay millions to gain that trust?
Does one need to spend hours and hours,
or detication to fight for this power?
Why abuse it when it was already there waiting?
Why throw away that privilege?
Needless to say,
if one felt betrayed,
who would open up again?
Appreciating what is laid in front of us,
yet we can push it aside...
In the end,
stress and agony are just waiting
patiently behind that door...
No amount of money can buy over friends...
If possible,
would you also gain that special trust from them?
Retrieving back what you have lost,
is not as simple as you think it is.....

the higher you go,
the harder you will fall...
expecting too much,
if it ever fails,
then more disappointment in life...
then what is the use of,
having expectations in the world?
no one likes rejection,
or disappointment...
then why do i have to suffer this misery?
I fell to rock bottom,
the deepest darkest crevices,
where i cannot be found...
the harder you try,
it may cease to fail...
then why am i suffering all of this?
is life that UNFAIR?

what goes up must come down.
does that apply to everything?
even friendship?
ignorance,
lies,
what do these mean to you?
did you literally experienced this?
you have made a mistake,
please don't repeat it.
its like you are taking another hostage,
then am i your next victim?
just so you know,
its hurts,
being the outsider...
its like you just go around,
picking up stuff,
then tired,
you chuck them aside...
we are not goods,
nor toys...
our feelings are not for you to play with...
stop repeating these "mistakes",
if not,
another will be claimed by the fallen...

where is god when you need him?
in the first place,
does he even exist?
if he does,
then my pleas and wants,
would have been heard a LONG time ago...
if he is real,
then why am i suffering?
this is something i can't decode...
believing can't save me now,
nor can trust,
then what can?
what can,
save me from myself?

like a patch of grass,
filled with life and energy,
which never stops turning...
unpredictable change,
sacrifice is crucial...
despite its ups and downs,
that magical bond sailed through storms...
TRUST
is what is placed in a friend...
ABUSE
taking it for granted,
abusing the power given...
RESPONSIBLITY
is promising what one said...
SHELTER
a form of home,
where troubles are shared during rainy days...
then let me ask,
do you have what it takes??
WITH GREAT POWER,
COMES WITH GREAT RESPONSIBILTY...

everything sounds so sad...
literally,
this no longer looks bright...
just what happen to me?
LIES.
what do they mean?
A LIAR.
someone who tells lies...
tell me who didn't tell one before...
FRIENDS.
people who supposingly know you very well...
people whereby secrets are shared which each other...
FRIENDS AND LIES.
people who told lies to another close person...
MAIN MOTIVE??
to fufil another FRIEND'S want...
since friends are all about liars and jealously,
then why do we even need them in this world??
maybe without them,
life wouldn't be too bad...
who is suppose to know,
betrayers are around the corner...
all we have to do is,
not to put TRUST in them...

please do not compare me to other people...
problems, results, life, whatever...
the harder i try,
the more it backfires on me...
why should I get hurt for no reason?
Is destiny playing with my head?
whatever it is,
i wanna say sorry...
but if this doesn't work out,
i'm prepared to live it out,
till i'm outta here...
then you will never see me again...
never will i bore you with my problems,
never will i let it all out ever again...
another promise i'm making,
another which i'm swear i'm never breaking.
building a hard shell around me probably
its the best way...
the doors to the outside world is still open,
but never the inside...




P.S the first two posts are linked.... if you can't be bothered, then dun read it...

complaints and complaints...
i swallowed them all...
don't even think about fairness,
because i don't even think there is
such a thing known as
EQUALITY
around here...
you could have just said politely or something.
if you just dismissed me like other people,
then what am i to you?
what am i compared to others??
if you don't want me preaching into your affairs,
fine with me...
you may be better off without me...
the attitude you left me,
may have made things clearer to me...
there you were,
chatting away with someone else,
when i needed you...
you shushed me up just like that...
you said i got the better deal,
well then i guess you don't know me well...
not everyone listened to your problems,
and tried to give you solutions from experiences...
i did...
i sat through this and listened to your problems...
and you just kicked me out...
you may not realise when you first said that but
i seriously don't feel like doing this anymore,
all i felt was insecurity...
everything i'm holding on to,
is slipping away into the night...
what is there to do if everything is not
going your way??
just let it loose and
let the pain slowly fade away...
what will be left of it,
are only it wounds...

How does it feel like
when someone asks you to shut up?
When all you wanted,
Was a simple answer??
And the reply you got was,
‘shush! I’m doing something else’?
Now how does that feel??
Ask another,
and still the reply is i don’t know.
The worst is hearing that person say,
I’m doing english with someone else,
and doesn’t care about your questions...
I only got one word for you,
And its the final word i’ll ever use,
WHATEVER...

All this time I've been wasted.
You got your share if secrets,
and i'm tired of all this...
You're not sorry,
what you've to done to me...
But you don't have to call anymore,
cos i'm not longer picking it up...
You don't have to do it,
as if you were forced...
Honestly,
what's gonna happen to me?
I only feel gravity
and i wonder why.
Its like
I'm wishing for all of this
to be over...
Why do all good things,
always come to an END??

How does it feel like,
when you realise something,
something you didn't even know??
Shock, agony,
promising to myself,
never to let this happen again...
This has caused me my friendship.
I for one,
want to end this really badly...
So much hurt inflicted on myself,
and getting nothing in return...
Just because I was stupid to fall,
to let my guard down...
Because I'm stupid,
I've to suffer all of this...
Because I'm stupid,
I now regret ever talking to you...

What a day...
Not did I died of boredom,
you actually lied to me...
You lied to both of us...
I seriously "cannot" believe you did that!
What a "great" friend you are,
you are lucky,
cos I don't believe a single word you said...
You can act,
but you know it yourself.
You know that you can lie to others,
others but not yourself...