You think too much...
Is it that my face betrays all my emotions??
Or is it,
is it that you were just worried.
That i'll will be mad at you??
Looks like you don't know me well,
the emotionless me,
the happy me,
the angry me,
the sad me...
They are all a big part of me.
But now,
you told me things,
slowly the fog starts to disappear...
I start to know you better...
Everyone in this world would once,
wear a mask to hide their true selfs...
Now,
many of us still wear a mask to hide our identity.
Is there a purpose behind it
or were you doing this to save yourself??
To hide the true you,
the weak and soft person,
under that "almighty" flesh??
Inside its just someone aching,
aching for love and attention...

Love.
What is it when you can't share,
share it with the person you love.
Love.
It brings joy, happiness,warmth
to both lovers.
Yet,
it can also bring misery and pain.
Love.
Though seemingly weak,
able to control one's mind,
till you are completely under its power.
Love.
Lust.
Without it,
there will be nothing...
Love.
It changes one completely,
in good and bad ways.
The sweet moments never last,
the sour ones try to prevail in this world.
Completely exhausting everyone.
Love.
Love,
there is nothing in this world,
more powerful than love.
But the coin flips,
what goes around comes around.
Love.
Love is a brat...

You should have walked away
when you had the chance...
But now,
its too late...
You led me on,
when you shouldn't have...
I'm filled with misery and weariness.
How will this ever end?
When you had the chance,
you still led me on...
I have to ask you,
do you regret?
Do you regret that
you didn't let me go when its possible?
Now I just want to say,
what I didn't get to say before.
Thank you,
you spelled the definition of LIFE.
Now,
living is no longer meaningless,
thanks to you.
I wish you all the best in whatever you do...

Its suppose to be a happy day.

But why did it become otherwise?

I found out,

one small little thing,

is able to wash away happiness.

Seeing posts about friendship,

seeing so many complaints,

fustrations,

makes me seriously feel like,

this world contains nothing but troubles.

I tried many ideas,

some ridiculous and dangerous.

But still,

I'm living in this dimension, era, world.

I feel really exhausted.

I just want to close my eyes,

pretend its all a bad dream.

Or another way,

is to go into a deep sleep,

never see another day ahead of me ever again.

If I'm able to do this,

I would gladly leave this world forever.

A painless and peaceful sleep,

is all what I need to cure all these troubles.

I'm nothing but a troublemaker,

I inflict pain those who are close around me.

I prefer leading a  solitude life...

People say that they don't know me.

They keep saying that what has gotten into you?

It was like on a typical friday.

Everyone was having fun,

a bunch of us hanging out...

Then its like a massive wave hit me...

That wave,

filled with dread, emptiness, exhaustion...

Getting home was one thing,

feeling welcome is another...

This made me realise that,

happiness can be found in the littlest of things.

You just have to open up to embrace them..

My mood sways like a swing,

its in my nature to do that...

You can't change what has been engraved in me,

you can only open up and get use to it...

You should have told me earlier.

You shouldn't have kept me in the dark.

You made me confused with all your actions,

your words,

your attitude.

I kept having sleepless nights,

dremas became nightmares.

I spent every single day thinking of you,

wishing that everything between us,

will be okay.

But now,

I don't know where to begin.

You led me into circles,

that I lost myself...

I can't save me from myself,

only you can...