A friend once told me

"parents do not appreciate what they have till its lost..."

Another says,

"what I loved in the past is now gone,

treasure what you have NOW..."

It seems that everyone is brooding,

over matters that is unseemingly impossible to solve....

So I just gotta say.

My heart contains nothing but SORROW

have I really lost this battle??

Competition,

when my heart is already torn into pieces.

I have LOST faith in myself...

But, no matter how tired I am,

I must complete this journey.

Giving up is not an option,

you mean the world to me,

I will not sit on the fence,

and see you walk away from my life...

I feel so horrible.

I feel really terrible.

Nothing can be used to describe this feeling.

Mid-day,

when I have experienced this feeling in front of you.

You tried to make me forget,

I appreciate that kindness.

But still,

my heart still feels broken.

You managed to succeed around sunset.

Seeing what great friends I have,

I feel contented,

even though the things we did were embarassing.

My very first time saying this,

is to treasure what we have,

and not to feel down.

It seems impossible,

and I still go with my quote.

We will all walk alone some day...

All around me are familiar faces

All wearing a mask,

inside,

worn out faces...

Their tears are filling up their glasses,

faces expressionless.

Hiding their faces,

drowning their sorrows,

seems like there is no tomorrow.

The dreams in which I'm dying,

are the best we ever had.

I find it hard to take.

The gates standing there,

awaiting the command to receive their guest...

I stand there,

watching as you walk towards those gates...

I cannot bear to see this day...

Today is so unexpected...

I could not believe it,

I took over Ethel's pain,

and turn it to mine...

Not only that,

it is a mad world...

Maybe some features from us,

is a disadvantage,

maybe a burden...

Exchanges were made,

none were pleasant...

The world is like a battlefield,

the wars and pain inflicted on each other...

Why can't we live together?

We don't have to fight,

it feels like a battlefield...

In the end,

more pain is inflicted on yourself...

We are living in a mad world,

where everything is like a battlefield...

Everything that is close to me,

I'm losing all of it.

I don't know what I did,

I don't even know what was the reason!

I swear I'm gonna give up.

I going to ignore every problem I face,

let time do its job.

Unshed tears have been spilled,

I don't want more to suffer,

so keep away from me,

if you wanna lead a good life.

I'm just a obstacle to your happiness.

Why should I drag people into my situation?

I'm just an omen to everyone.

My world is all mixed up,

everything is not clear.

What you are looking for is not here,

true friendship does not exist in my world...

You think that I enjoyed every minute of it?
You think that I didn't know how you felt?
You think that i'm being self-centred?
Well guess what,
you got what you want,
and I didn't...
You showed me your true colours
and shouted at me,
when I didn't even know what was going on.
i just gotta say,
thanks a lot...
you are such a "GREAT" friend...

Time,
the one thing that can never stop...
Time,
waits for no one...
Time,
flies past in a blink of an eye...
So much has happened,
within a period of time...
How I miss those days,
those days when we had fun...
Now,
your time has come...
Prepare to accept your fate,
there is no turning back...
Face it with open arms,
we all know time can never rewind...
Before you leave,
I just wanna say,
HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY ETHEL!!!

Life is unpredictable...
Life is unfair...
Some get better advantages,
others more unfortunate.
People complain about how miserable they are.
How they despise others,
insults they throw,
faces they show,
demanding things,
but a man's desires,
not all can be fufilled...
My desire,
seeing others caring for their loved ones,
is it that too much to ask??
Seeing you ignoring me,
shouting at the top of your lungs at me,
makes me feel very awkward...
Seeing you laying your life for him,
makes me wonder,
would you do the same for me too??
Would you see me crash and burn,
or
save me from this tradegy?

People keep telling me,
"Do not judge a book by its cover".
People keep telling me,
"Think twice before acting".
Just so you know,
some want to keep themselves low.
Just so you know,
not everyone wants to be open,
spilling out stuff is not that easy as you think.
Every single day,
I close my eyes and think back of what I've done,
gazing at stars or moon,
refreshing my mind of the memories...
As time passes,
I find this ridiculous...
Others think that the world is spinning around me,
but I think its YOU who is getting it all WRONG!
You think that the whole wide world must be friends.
No enemies, backstabbers, cheaters or unlikeable people,
must exist in this UNFAIR world...
I call this unjust,
i call this cruel,
I call this selfish.
The world is an unfair, unlucky, selfish place,
you think that everything can be solved?
You think that I'm closing one eye and ignoring everything?
You threw insults at me, then let me throw some back at you then.
When I see you,
I run out of words to say...
Donkey years ago,
you are like the sun,
you brighten my day,
the laughter, the talking, gossipping,
were the times we had...
But NOW,
you mean nothing to me,
just a gust of wind blowing past me...
Where'd you come from you're out of this world,
to me.
No matter how hard the wind blows,
the mountain can never bow to it.
This indicates how many attempts,
it will never work.
But I want to say something,
something that is from the bottom of my heart...
I treasure the memories I had with you,
the fun and tears we had,
will be etched in my heart...
So I just gotta say,
I'm not being hard-headed,
deaf or insulting,
its never gonna work...
It doesn't matter to me what your choice is,
what done cannot be undone...
Let time heal the wounds we share,
and maybe,
it will work out...
For now,
just leave it be...

One after another,
it never seems to end...
One minute its here,
then the next minute,
it was there.
But now,
they seem to tumble after one another...
Its never gonna end, isn't it?
Your mind changes,
just like a rollar coaster,
coming up then down...
Time is running out,
my patience is wearing thin...
All I want to tell you is,
before this is all over,
ITS TIME TO TAKE A SIDE!

It started out fine...
One perfectly happy day,
until I realised that...
Your attitude towards me is so COLD,
I don't recognise you anymore...
That person I once knew,
just walked out of my door.
I barely even talk to you,
let alone to look at you.
All this time, I've been so stupid,
so blind that...
I can't even figure out your intensions...
Now that you are gone,
you are just an empty space in my heart...
People say its jealously,
but i ain't think so...
So I got 2 words for you,
YOU SUCK!

We started out as friends,
it was cool,
but it was all pretend...
Time made me realise,
it was never meant to be.
No matter what it takes,
you are just not the one I've been looking for.
You already walked out of the door,
leaving me in the lurch.
You know you did it,
i'm gone...
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You were wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door,
this is so you,
but, I'm already gone...

I can't believe I am so weak,
I'm so fragile.
I cannot seriously believe that,
I, for once, did break down.
I feel so useless,
I have changed.
The old me is dead and gone,
and the reincarnated is so weak.
I feel such a disgrace to me.
Why is this happening to me?
I just let you in through my door,
without giving myself another thought.
I can't honestly believe i FORGAVE you!

I can't believe it!!!
After all this I've been through,
after all this misery,
after all this pain...
I keep having insomia,
i turn here and there.
Worried and desperate,
but all I have to do is to overcome it,
work hard for it.
Now...
All I have to say is,
its all over!!!
all the pain washed away.
All I can say is,
Mid Year Exams are OVER!!!!