Ever since that incident, things have become awkward.
You try really hard to cheer me up,
you try really hard to make it sound like nothing has happened,
let me tell you the truth.
None of it works.
No matter what you do,
the pain will still be etched on my skin.
the scar will never heal,
the feeling of hatred is still in my veins.
Seeing you try even harder,
makes me feel like insulting you.
But I don't want to risk another conflict between us,
so let me tell you now and once more,
none of it works.

This is the history project... with ethel, amanda, wee hao and shengwu...

How does it feel when someone you trust just turn their back on you?
How does it feel when someone close to you just made you snap in 5 minutes?
How does it feel when you see that friend of yours,
talking to another friend for the whole day and not you?
How does it feel when someone that is close to you,
totally didn't believe you when you tell him/her something?
How did you feel when you saw their reaction?
When they didn't believe you, their voice starts getting louder...
And they say they are explaining when they are actually shouting?
Now, how does that feel?
It felt like someone just slapped me on the face, hard.
That slap, made me lost that trust,
I will never forgive nor forget.
The pain is unbearable.
I feel like bursting, I cannot take it any longer.
Life is just that UNFAIR!!!

Decided to take pics of little bro...

This is not the first,
this is the second...
Using up my energy,
is such a waste...
A psychotic retard did something,
that made my blood boil...
Whatever that retard does,
makes me wanna slap or chop her into two...
I don't know how long i can keep this up

Words cannot describe me now,
I don't even want to talk about it.
People say I have become a total stranger,
they do not understand me.
Smiling is no longer on my agenda,
it has become a pain accomplish that.
That person you knew,
may not come back.
As much as I hate to say,
I don't really care about anything anymore.
I'm just a living zombie...

Life is just so tiring,
there were those days when one can be so relaxed.
Gone were those days,
life is so meaningless now.
Everyday is like a dread,
getting out of bed is like torture.
Nightmares haunt me everynight.
When will all of this come to an end?